Friday, June 28, 2013

If Only

I found a swarm of ants in my house last night. This was right after I discovered that there was a little plastic piece missing off the top of my vacuum cleaner and I was thinking that I wouldn't be able to vacuum up the cat hair on the floor. I proceeded to have a little temper tantrum and may have yelled at Jason. He then went upstairs to get away from me while I took my anger out on the floors.

I am literally the worst housekeeper ever. I will let things go until I get so fed up with the mess and clean everything in a fury. All the while doing so while thinking that I need to have more money so I can hire a housekeeper to clean for me. This leads me to the "if only" game which is never a good thing and usually self destructive.

If only I had more money so I could do this, this and this.
If only I had a nicer house, I would keep it clean.
If only I had a second car, I would be able to go out with friends.
If only I could find a new position at work, I wouldn't dread it so much.
If only I lived closer to the girls, I would get to see them more.

I could keep going, but you get the picture. I tend to get jealous of what other people have and then get bogged down by thinking about what I don't have. Then, one little thing like ants (which I hate with a burning passion) will cause me to fly into a rage.

Truth is, I have a pretty good life. I have a decent job and a loving boyfriend and 5 beautiful daughters. My choices in life have led me to the point where I am and for the most part, I am good with that. I don't believe that there is a grand design out there for everyone. Your life is not planned out for you. It is the choices and decisions you make that lead you down your own path. Some may not agree with that, choosing to believe that God has a master plan in place and He will lead you where you need to be. I disagree.

I have touched on this before, but I am not what you would call a "religious" person. I do believe in God and I was baptized in the church when I was 8 years old. When I was younger, I would kick your ass in a game of Bible Trivia. Today, however I am not a worshiper. My feelings toward God are complicated at best. I do still carry a lot of anger about my mom's death. And I absolutely refuse to be preached to. I made the comment to a group of people that I had to unfollow someone on Instagram because they posted too many Bible verses. (Cue awkward silence). Obviously I was alone in feeling that way, but that sort of thing on IG or Facebook or Twitter does not lift me up. Quite the opposite, in fact. If I wanted to listen to someone talk about the glory of God, I would call my grandfather. That man can talk.

So, where am I going with all of this? since I went off on a weird tangent there  I can't let myself get upset about other people's perceptions of me (real or imagined) because we don't share the same beliefs. I can't let myself get bogged down with if only's. I could waste so much time dreaming about how my life could be different instead of being happy with and cherishing what I have now. Keep moving forward, don't live in the past. Don't worry about what others have or don't have. That's one of the main reasons behind my tattoo, so it will be a reminder to me.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Thoughtless Thursday

This is less about being thoughtless and more about being random, however there is not a synonym for the word random that begins with a T. Trust me, I checked. I just wanted the alliteration.

Anywho, Kansas City Corporate Challenge is wrapping up this week with the swimming events and then Tug of War on Saturday. Tug of War is always fun, even though we don't usually place. By the third pull I'm usually dead tired so I'll be interested to see how I fare this year being in better shape. I did get roped into some of the swimming events this week, as well. I didn't want to do it, but I'm glad I did. I forgot how much I enjoy swimming and I'm a pretty good swimmer, although not fast. I did the 50yd breaststroke (which is two laps up and down an Olympic size pool) and then got disqualified because I didn't touch both hands on the wall after the first lap. Not going to lie, I was rather pissed about that. If I'm going to drag my ass out to a swimming event, then I want it to count. I also did the 100yd medley and the 50yd backstroke. I got an awesome bruise on my elbow from whacking it on the wall during the backstroke. It goes well with the bruise I have on my leg from Melanie's coffee table and the mystery bruise I have on my right shoulder. I'm falling apart, y'all.
I'm very excited to see my girls this weekend. I have been missing them like crazy lately since I haven't seen them in almost three weeks. I don't have anything exciting planned, probably just some lazy pool time and maybe we'll catch a movie. Still, it is really more about spending time with them. I've tried Skyping, but it never seems like we're logged in at the same time. And when I call, it is always awkward silence and then passing the phone off to someone else. Oh well, just looking forward to giving them a squeeze.

I'm trying to get more into Twitter lately. I follow some really funny people and I think I have a few good thoughts here and there. Not sure that I get all the Twitter etiquette, but it is still a fun way to pass the time. Follow me if you want @zanda674

Lastly, I'll just leave you with this little gem. This damn song has been stuck in my head for two whole days. Oh, and it is blatantly obvious that she is going through her "experimental phase". You're welcome.

Monday, June 24, 2013

St. Louis, Friends and Beer

I'm back at work today after my epic weekend of fun in St. Louis and I'm doing everything I can to get out of actually working. I really just want to go back to bed and sleep for a few more hours. That car alarm going off at 5AM was not appreciated this morning.

On to the weekend recap! Friday morning I actually got my ass in gear because I wanted to get some things done before I headed out. I got a short run in and then had Enterprise pick me up for my rental car. Got back and took a shower and then took way too long to pack. I also packed way too much but that's pretty typical. I stopped and got my second pedicure ever and then did a little Old Navy shopping because I needed more clothes to stuff into my suitcase.

The drive was easy, I've done it a million times before. I did stop off in Rocheport, MO to pick up a couple of bottles of wine for Holly and Chris (isn't that what you do when you go to someone's house?). Rocheport actually has kind of weird sentimentality for me. After my parents divorced and we went to spend weekends at my dad's house, they always met in Rocheport. Apparently, it was the middlemost point between their houses. It is a little rinky-dink town, but this winery has just grown so much so I always like to support their business.
Riverboat Red is my favorite
Friday night with the girls was a blast. Highlights of the evening were; "Big Holly's Beer Camp, Creeping on HJ in the window, Kimmy and Ashley having a beer chugging contest, Ashley breaking the valet parking sign, Drunk Kimmy and a Jack in the Box run at 1AM.

Holly warned us about Olive Betty waking up bright and early and she was not kidding. I was on the floor on the air mattress and it was too irresistible for her. She kept jumping on it and patting my head to get me to wake up. Fortunately, she's too cute to be mad at. 
Chauncey was just hovering waiting for her to drip
Saturday consisted of going out to lunch and meeting Mel's blogless friend Laura and her husband and then going on a brewery tour of Schlafly Bottleworks. It was actually less of a tour and more of a presentation with video and beer tasting, but it was still fun.

That night, we just hung out at Mel's house while her hubby grilled and we all enjoyed some more drinks. Live entertainment was provided by Miss Elle while Wes charmed all the ladies. Great food and friends, but it made me a little homesick and I was wishing that Jason and the girls were there to enjoy it with me. Laura and Ashley and I did manage to go next door to tour the model home that was open, though. It was beautiful and huge and I'll be moving in as soon as I win the lottery. Mel's really looking forward to having me as a neighbor.

Sunday, we were all sad to leave and no one was looking forward to the drive. We had a good breakfast at Country Kitchen with a not so good waitress and then it was hugs and goodbyes.

Holly, Mel, Me, Kimmy and Ashley

I decided that I was going to stop off in Columbia at Iron Tiger Tattoo because I was tired of putting it off and I wanted to get it done. Morgan drew up the words and got to work and did a fantastic job. It hurt like a mofo, especially right under my ankle, but it was so worth it and I absolutely love it!

Ignore my wrinkly foot, it was a weird angle to take a picture
Naturally, it decided to begin monsooning as soon as I left the shop and the storm continued for about 45 minutes. Nothing like torrential downpour and 40 mph winds to keep you alert while driving. I made it home safely though and snuggled with my baby. I can't wait to see my other girls this weekend. I miss them tons.

Such a fun weekend and I am again amazed that I have been able to make such good friends through blogging. Now, if we only lived closer!

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Wedding Talk


Well, well, well, it's a wedding link-up. From someone who has had one wedding but is now divorced, living with someone but not married; this could be potentially awkward. But for me? Nah! What the hell? Let's just go with it.

My ex and I had actually been engaged for a year and planning for a post graduation wedding when we hit a little speed bump in the form of an unplanned pregnancy. Being the good Christian girl that I was, (and unwilling to disappoint my mother or incur my father's wrath) we moved the wedding up to November. Planning a wedding with no money while still in college and having to plan around everyone else's schedules was stressful and not fun.

My mom and I were able to find a beautiful dress that fit me perfectly off the rack for $300 (score!) I decided that I needed 5 of my closest friends (I was in a sorority after all) and my sister for a total of 6 bridesmaids. We went out shopping one day and managed to find navy dresses that everyone liked and pretty much fit everyone's body type. Again, off the rack. Colors were navy and coral/peach. We got a good deal on the flowers and ordered the cake from Hy-Vee.

The ceremony and reception was held at a big church and my grandfather presided. He has been an ordained minister for years and the man loves to talk. Needless to say, the ceremony was loooooong.

We did not have a dj or a dance at all and of course, no alcohol. Other than tablecloths and streamers and balloons, no decorations. The wedding was on a Sunday and we ended up having to go back to school the next day. We never had a honeymoon. The pictures were taken by the boyfriend of a sorority sister and after receiving the proofs, we never ended up ordering prints of any of the pictures. I still have the album of proofs in a box. Guess that should have been a sign.

So... are Jason and I ever going to get married? (This is for you, Cheryl). Honestly, I just don't know. I am actually very happy with the way things are right now. Marriage would merely be a formality at this point since it wouldn't change anything in our relationship. Only our taxes.

However, if Jason ever does recover from the emotional scars left on him by his ex-wife and we save up a little bit of money and do decide to pull the trigger, I would do things completely different from the first time. The ceremony would not be in a church, most likely outside and it would be short and intimate. I want to have a huge reception with a ton of people, buffet style dinner and an open bar. Jason has already laid claim to picking the music, but I'm sure I can sneak some good jams in there too because I want to be able to dance.

The dress I'm still undecided about. I don't know if I would want to go floor length and strapless or if I want to go with tea length with a full skirt or something more "age appropriate". I really just don't know. That's where the fun shopping comes in!

Honeymoon is an absolute must. I would love to go on a cruise somewhere tropical and just relax and enjoy myself and Jason and not have to worry about anything.

So, there you have it. If I do ever have a second wedding, you guys will be the first to know and everyone's invited!

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Random Tuesday stuff

I kind of feel like I am a hot mess today so bear with me. I still haven't figured out how to do 2nd day hair properly. I had a good hair day yesterday and then hit the snooze button too many times this morning so I figured I would give it another shot. I sprayed it with Tresemme dry shampoo and let it set in while I put my makeup on. It looked like I had doused my head in baby powder and it turned my brush white, but it does help with some of the oil. Next came the straight iron and an attempt to fix the bangs. (I'm still having bang regret. Why oh why did I cut them?) If only I'd known about this miraculous product.

Oh, and if you Google image Bang Regret, you will get a picture of Rhianna's face after being beaten by Chris Brown. You're welcome.

My new shoes squeak. They are so cute and I still love them, but they squeak when I walk. I don't even know how to fix that.

We got home last night and again did the "what do you want for dinner?" tango. I hate, with a burning passion, deciding on what to have for dinner. Jason is no help either because he either wants pizza or another of his three favorite meals that are in constant rotation. I need a personal chef. Instead, I ran up to the grocery store and picked up a few things and we had some chicken wraps and fruit salad. Emmeline was loving on the fruit and especially the bwuebewwies.

We are having a Minute to Win It competition at work today. I think it is going to be a lot of fun. I'm paired up with a guy who's bald so we named our team "Red and The Head". I'm pretty sure we're going to win some sweet prizes. I always need more corporate schwag in my life.

That's about all I got for today. I need to get some shopping in this week so I can look super cute next to all the hotties I will meeting up this weekend. I feel like I need to have a maxi dress, but haven't really fallen in love with any yet. Oh well, maybe I'll just schlub around in my usual t-shirt and shorts.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

Monday, June 17, 2013

A Mullet, a Blate and a PR

Busy weekend for me, but it was a good one! Friday night after work, we stopped at Old Navy because I wanted to look at some of their workout clothes, plus I needed some new shorts. I didn't really love any of the active wear, but I did find two pairs of denim shorts that fit me perfectly in a size 6. (squee!) Jason got himself a new pair of cargo shorts and a couple shirts and of course, Emmeline had to pick out some new clothes too.

Saturday morning, we got up and headed over to the bowling alley for some corporate challenge fun. My first two games were nothing to get excited about with scores of 100 and 99, respectively. The third game was the kicker, however because I bowled a 144. Pretty good score for me as I am not a regular bowler. I have no idea where we placed in our division, but it was still fun. Plus, there was this:

It was permed and it was beautiful
After bowling, we ran back home to finish packing and get on the road to Joplin. The drive was fairly easy until we were about 20 miles away. Then the heavens decided to open up and it absolutely poured. It got so bad that visibility was practically nothing. Best driving conditions ever. We made it to the house in one piece and then played the waiting game to find out if the race was going to be canceled. They were sending out periodic emails with updates and I was hoping that they weren't going to have to postpone it. Finally, the rain abated and the race was on.
I was thinking that I was going to be cold so we swung by Target and I bought a zip up jacket to wear. However, by the time we got there, it was starting to get really humid and muggy so I didn't end up wearing it. I met up with Darci and Julie (whose blog name I don't know) and hung out and chatted until the race started. Ashlee and her husband showed up a little bit later as they had a flat tire they had to deal with. There was a kids' 1 mile fun run to start off with and it was the cutest thing. It totally made me want to have my girls start running with me. The 10K runners were off next and then the 5K'ers.

The course was on a trail that was pretty flat and it was just and out and back type trail. All that hill running in my neighborhood really did me some good because I didn't think it was bad at all. I started out pacing with Ashlee and we were doing pretty good until we started to pass some slower runners and then she pulled ahead of me. I concentrated on keeping a good pace and keeping my breathing in check. I actually felt really good during the whole race right up until the last half mile. I caught up with Ashlee and the halfway turnaround point and ended up passing her. They were offering water and Gatorade and I chose the Gatorade since I had trained with it before, but this stuff was nasty. It was Lemon-Lime flavor (I think) and it was extremely sweet and salty at the same time. The taste pretty much sat in the back of my throat for the rest of the race. I kept my pace up, though and I had my Nike+ app going which had me at about a 12 minute mile. The last half mile I started to struggle and got really tired, but I did not stop going. I kicked it into gear at the end and sprinted across the finish line. My official time was 38:31. It was a little slower than I wanted, but it was still a PR and I ran the whole way. I did stop to take a drink at the water station, but other than that, I never walked. First time!

Me, Darci, Ashlee and Julie
 It was a fun race and I really enjoyed myself at this one and I was not super stressed. Meeting my fellow bloggers is always fun, too. Now, it is time to start my half training!

Sunday morning was pretty low key. We went out to breakfast with Jason's dad and sister and my inner fatty thought it was necessary to eat everything in sight. Never mind that the omelet would have been enough, let's throw in hash browns and pancakes too. I was ridiculously full and went back to the house and took a nap. Still, I didn't eat again until dinner.

Emmeline got to enjoy some late birthday presents including a new tricycle. Jason got it put together (with Em's help of course) and she went riding around outside for a while. We headed back home around 4:00 so we had some downtime before bed and then getting up for work.

All in all, we had a great weekend with friends and family and I think we might be fully potty trained! Woohoo!

Friday, June 14, 2013

PR, Here I Come

I don't know about you all, but I am so glad today is Friday. I have a pretty fun weekend coming up so I'm definitely looking forward to it.
Saturday morning, I will be bowling my way to a Corporate Challenge victory for my company. I'm pretty sure my 114 average will secure us the first place title. (can you smell the sarcasm?) After that, Jason and the munchkin and I are heading down to Joplin for a little family visit which should be nice. Not quite sure what the plans are, but it is usually low key.

Saturday night, I will be running my 4th 5K race as part of the Joplin Starry Night summer series. I'll be meeting up with Darci and maybe Ashlee who probably thinks I'm a stalker. I am really hoping to PR at this one and for once run the whole damn thing. If you've been following me for a while, you know that I have a serious mental block when it comes to running outside. I can run on the treadmill, no problem, but outside I let myself walk every time. I have yet to run a race without stopping to walk. So frustrating.

Since I have been seriously slacking on my running since the half marathon, I wanted to get back into it to prep for this weekend. Procrastination Queen, right here. I set a goal to run outside every night this week and increase my time each night. I've had to make some adjustments, but have done pretty good. Monday night, I ran 1.67 miles without stopping. Tuesday, it was 9:00PM by the time I got to run so I just got on the treadmill and ran 2.12 miles. Wednesday, not going to lie, I slacked. Didn't run and had two beers instead. Womp, womp. Last night, however, I got my ass back outside and ran 2.5 miles in the dark and up and down some serious hills. So proud of myself. I did have to walk about a tenth of a mile at the top of a particularly brutal hill, but otherwise ran the whole time. I plan to get back out there tonight and then kill it on Saturday.

Sunday will probably be spent with Jason's dad since it is Father's Day and all and then we'll head back home. I'll struggle through my 4 day work week and then it is off to the Lou!

Anyone else have fun weekend plans with family? Running any races?

Thursday, June 13, 2013

To be 21 again

A letter to my 21 year old self:


My darling naive girl,
You are about to enter one of the most tumultuous and life-changing years of your entire life. Hold on and enjoy the journey because it will be gone far too quickly.

You kick off the year with a trip to visit your sister in Colorado. I know that the belly button ring sounds like a good idea, but honestly, skip it and get a tattoo instead. Trust me on this one.

You will be sorely disappointed by your 21st birthday activities. If you don't want to end up eating dinner at Perkins, then plan your own party. This is true throughout your life. No one can read your mind and will never do what you expect them to. Plan your fun yourself.

Majoring in French will have its one huge bonus in the fact that you get to have an epic trip to France for 2 months. This will be a trip you will never forget. Take everything in, take tons of pictures and enjoy yourself. You won't get an experience like this for a long time. Oh, and that guy on the trip you flirt with? Don't. Him and his pencil dick are not worth it.

When you come home, your mom will surprise you by telling you that she's getting married. It will be okay. Despite the fact that you've never met him, he is a good guy and he is so right for her. She deserves to be happy after being alone for so long.

After starting your senior year of college, you and C will encounter a speed bump and will discover you are pregnant. It is scary as hell and you are allowed to freak out. However, it will be okay. Just search for some cute maternity clothes. I know it was 1995, but they had to exist somewhere. And say goodbye to your belly button ring.

It will be okay if you wait to have your wedding until after the baby is born, however if you insist on having it before, then make it about you and C. Don't try to please everyone else. Have the big reception party. Even though you can't drink, you can still have fun. Otherwise, you will just regret it.

Don't be so concerned with what everyone else is thinking. You cannot please everyone, so just try to please yourself. Those sidelong glances in class mean nothing and you should not be ashamed of your growing belly or the life you hold inside you.

On a chilly May morning, you will give birth to a beautiful baby girl. She will be headstrong and opinionated and one of the best things you've ever done.

Some pearls of wisdom I've picked up along the years:
Be kind to the man you married. He will be your best friend, your lover and confidante for many years. Talk to him and tell him what you are thinking and feeling. I know you don't like talking about your feelings and you will do anything to avoid confrontation, but it will go a long way.

Learn how to manage your money. This will save you many fights and struggles. Don't rely on C's parents so heavily.

Don't let your friends go by the wayside. Keep in touch. There may be a time when they aren't there any longer.

Learn to love yourself. You don't need to rely on others to validate who you are. You are a beautiful person with a good heart. You will make many mistakes along your path, but those do not define you. Be happy and comfortable in your own skin.


P.S. Call your mom more often.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Birthday weekend = Success

I had a really great time this weekend and honestly, nothing really out of the ordinary happened. Weird how that works out. Friday night, I picked up two of the girls for the weekend. It was only Cordie and Paige because Hannah had the ACT's and Elsa had a birthday party to go to. I was rather disappointed at first when I found out they weren't coming, but I sucked it up. They are just kids after all.

I wanted to get a new outfit for my date that Jason and I had planned on Saturday so we stopped at Marshall's on the way home. I found some super cute teal jeans with orange buttons and I got an orange flowy top to go with them. I have also come to the conclusion that I own a lot of orange and that is the first color I'm drawn to when shopping. I may have a problem.

Paige got to open her present when we got home since her birthday was on the 31st, I hadn't had a chance to give it to her yet. (Plus, it just arrived in the mail that day). I ordered a Doodlebox for her which was filled with really high quality art supplies. She absolutely loved it and told me it was her favorite present. She even received an iPod touch so that is saying something. Mom for the win.

Saturday, we took it easy and the girls wanted to go to the pool. I thought it would be too cold, but it seems like kids are immune to it. I stayed out of the water which was freezing but Cordie and Emmeline swam for quite a bit. Paige bugged out early, saying the water was too cold for her. She really just couldn't wait to dive into her new doodlebox and she painted me a picture.

Date night was a lot of fun. We went out to a local Italian restaurant and I ordered a 5oz. filet that came with a vegetable medley of asparagus, sweet potato and red pepper. Absolutely delicious and it was like the perfect serving size. I didn't feel like I was going to explode after eating. I even had room for some creme brulee for dessert.

Why the man won't smile is a mystery to me
The new Star Trek movie was next on the agenda so we stopped over at the liquor store to get some provisions. Nothing like sneaking tiny bottles of booze in your purse into the movie theater. We're classy like that. The movie was awesome and if you don't know who Benedict Cumberbatch is yet, I suggest you google him immediately. My favorite part of the night was after the movie was over, though. The clouds decided to open up and it started pouring rain. What else can you do, but take your shoes off and run in the rain. So much fun and I couldn't stop laughing like I was 6 years old again. Love moments like that.

Sunday was the perfect relax day. I stayed in my jammies pretty much the entire day until I had to leave to take the girls back. No working out this weekend, which I'm okay with. I was thinking that I should have tried to get a run in, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I did try on some bikinis while shopping and I actually didn't hate how I looked. I know what I need to do and I will get it done.

How was your weekend? Anyone else run in the rain?

Friday, June 7, 2013

Let's go to a restaurant and make them sing to me

Fun little linkup today to talk about things that make you happy.

1. It is my birthday! Today begins the last year I will spend in my 30's. Bittersweet? Not really. I feel like I have grown a lot in the past 10 years and I am so much more at ease with who I am and where I am in life. I've been through so much and I realize that age is just a number not a defining characteristic.

2. All the love I have received today is overwhelming. I truly have the best friends and family.

I love getting flowers (and cookies)
3. I get to have a kid-free date night tomorrow night to go out and celebrate. Dinner and a movie and maybe a surprise trip to the tattoo shop. We shall see where the night takes us.

4. New shoes. Need I say more? Just got these from Just Fab and I love them! I even painted my toenails last night so I could cover up my purple toenail (which is still bruised from my half marathon) and wear these shoes today.
I have the best boyfriend ever. He is constantly telling me how much he loves me and how sexy he thinks I am, even when I'm not feeling it. He goes out of his way to do little things for me (like make me coffee in the morning) that mean so much. He is my rock and I couldn't imagine life without him.

What is making you happy today?

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Running, Potty Training and a Recipe

Blogging fodder is in short supply for me right now, so this will probably just be a random assortment of things going through my head.

I ran the mile run for the KCCC track events last night. I ran 11:36 which for me is actually pretty good (since I'm super slow) but comparatively, it was rather humbling. The top runner in my age group 35-39 ran a 6 minute mile. Are you fucking kidding me? In my wildest dreams, I've never run a 6 minute mile. Oh well, at least I didn't come in dead last and I earned some points for my team. I have the 400m tomorrow. Pretty sure I'm not going to finish it in under a minute. I'm shooting for 2.

I get my stitches out tomorrow morning, so I'm pretty happy about that. The infection that I got was a staph infection (yuck), but I was put on some heavy duty antibiotics so its all good now. I think I am going to have a nasty scar, though, which I'm not real pleased about. Right now, it is all raised and red and about an inch and a half long. I really should take a picture for documentation purposes. The other two spots where I had the moles removed are also red. They look like I got burned with a cigar. Pretty.

Emmeline is super close to being fully potty trained. We decided to just go cold turkey this week and keep her in underwear since the pull-ups were kind of like her little crutch. She did great yesterday with no accidents and I'm hoping today goes just as well. Daycare costs go down once she's trained, so I'm all on board with that.
She is a stubborn one, no mistake about that. She has reached that age where I just want to tear my hair out in frustration. She wants to do everything herself, Miss Independent, and get PISSED if I do it for her. Also, she manages to take her sweet time doing it. Things that should take 2 minutes, like picking out jammies and putting them on, turns into a 30 cajoling session.
"Put your jammies on, Emmeline"
"I know"
She then proceeds to wander around the room, poke through her drawers, play with her Barbie, look at a book...
"Emmeline! Put your pajamas on NOW"
"I know!"
"Then do it!"
Ugh, beer me. I know is her new thing. Apparently at age 3, she already knows everything she is supposed to do. Which is weird because she has started asking me Why after everything else. Stinker.

Last, but not least, I thought I would link up with Sami and Jodi for the healthy recipes. I don't have many healthy recipes that I can call my own, but this one is always a potluck favorite. I usually eat it with tortilla chips which I'm sure lessens the health factor, but it is also great on its own. I wish I had a picture of it.

Avocado Corn Salsa
1 large tomato or 4 Roma tomatoes (your preference)
1 medium red onion
1 bunch cilantro
1 can black beans
1 can sweet corn
2-3 avocados
Salt (to taste)
Lime juice (to taste)
Finely dice the tomato, onion and cilantro and add to large bowl. Drain and rinse the black beans and corn and add them in. Halve and dice the avocados and add them in as well.  Season with salt and lime juice and mix well.  Serve with tortilla chips.
Optional: Add in a couple diced jalapenos if you want some kick or add in ¼ cup of Italian dressing for added flavor.

What random things are you thinking about today?

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Softball and Sore Muscles

I played my once a year requisite softball games this past weekend for Corporate Challenge. We had a pretty good team and ended up with 5th place in our division. It was a really good time and I felt a lot more athletic than I have in past years, although I am not even close to being a really good player. I played softball when I was a kid, but was never any good. I was stuck out in right field and mostly bored. I never really learned all the rules and nuances of the game and I regret that now. Softball is a lot of fun and I may see if I can get on a coed team this summer. Plus, I don't want to feel like the weak link on the team every year.

I've got track events that I'm participating in this week. I'm doing the mile run and the 400 meter and maybe the 400 meter relay. I'm pretty excited to do this even though I'm still not a very fast runner. Two years ago, I was talked into doing the 800 m run and I tricked myself into thinking that I could run it with no problem. Wrong. I couldn't make it one lap around the track without stopping to walk and getting myself disqualified. That was humiliating. This year, I know that I can run that distance with no problem. I may not get first, but at least I will not be disqualified again.

I mentioned yesterday that I've been doing a couple different challenges that I set for myself this month. One of those is a squat challenge. I started off with a set of 10 squats in 3 different positions and have been adding one squat to each position each day so I should be at 100 by the end of the month (unless my math is wrong). Doing squats plus softball plus running equals my legs on fire. Yesterday was by far the worst. I cringed every time I had to get up from my desk because it hurt so much. I did go for a little walk yesterday afternoon though, and that helped out a lot, although wedge heels are probably not the best option for a jaunt around the walking trail.

Anyone else doing some personal challenges this month?

Monday, June 3, 2013

ORB Update

So, I was just going to do my usual weekend recap and call it good, but I realized that I still haven't posted my Operation Red Bikini update yet. Since I've had the button on my page for months, I at least owe it to the wonderful sponsors to keep up my end of the bargain.

I had no idea when I started this journey (or whatever else you want to call it) 11 months ago that I would end up connecting with some of the most supportive and funny and great people ever. I just knew that I didn't want to be fat anymore. I already posted about my A-ha moment and so I started off just counting calories and trying out Couch to 5K. At the time, I could barely run a full minute without needing to stop and walk. Yet I kept going. I hit the 10 pound mark after one month and felt great. I took a break from running for a month and started doing some other workout videos. I slacked on counting calories and the pounds came off slower (shocker). I picked up running again and tried the Whole 30/Paleo way of eating for a month and I hit the 20 pound mark in October.

I ran my first and second 5Ks in November and was hooked. I managed to stay on track during the holiday seasons and in December, I hit my 30 pound loss mark. In January, I ran my first 10K with a group of wonderful ladies. I was feeling really good and happy with the way I looked and was feeling. Then the Operation Red Bikini challenge was announced and I thought that it was perfect to keep the momentum going.

I set some lofty goals for myself for February and then somewhere along the way, I fell off the wagon, so to speak. People kept telling me how great I looked and I let it go to my head. I let myself get lazy. I started the half marathon training as a way to build up my endurance and then quit after a couple of weeks. I was still getting runs in however, just not as frequently. I tried to complete 30 days of Jillian twice without success (two weeks seems to be my limit, for some reason). I also became rather lax about what I've been eating. Pizza has once again become a regular meal for us instead of a once in a while meal.

Needless to say, I have not lost any weight or inches since February. I haven't gained any either, so my body is apparently stuck in maintenance mode. Apparently, I am doing just enough exercise to offset my not so great eating habits. Something clicked back into place last week for me, though. Maybe it is my impending birthday or maybe it is the fact that I have been so bloated I look 5 months pregnant, but either way I'm ready to get back at it. I do want to wear a bikini this summer Goddammit, and I want to feel at least semi-confident in it.

So, I am back at it again. I have signed up for the Fort4Fitness half marathon and I will run that in under 3 hours. I had printed off Marcy's May challenge with the intent of doing it (I didn't) so I am now using it for June. I also am doing my own little squat challenge that I made up. These are "easy" exercises that I can do without taking up a bunch of time and I can stick with. I want to get rid of the spare tire that has been hanging around my midsection for too long.

I have had a lot of ups and downs the past year, but although I may not be at my ultimate goal, I am damn proud of myself. 30 pounds may not seem like much when there are some extraordinary women out there who have lost 100+ pounds, but it is all mine. I worked for it and did things I never thought possible (like running/walking a half marathon). I love that I have muscles now! I am comfortable in my own skin and happier with myself than I have been in a long time. Thank you to all my friends in blogland that have helped along the way. The road was that much more enjoyable with you along for the ride.