A-ha moment and so I started off just counting calories and trying out Couch to 5K. At the time, I could barely run a full minute without needing to stop and walk. Yet I kept going. I hit the 10 pound mark after one month and felt great. I took a break from running for a month and started doing some other workout videos. I slacked on counting calories and the pounds came off slower (shocker). I picked up running again and tried the Whole 30/Paleo way of eating for a month and I hit the 20 pound mark in October.
Needless to say, I have not lost any weight or inches since February. I haven't gained any either, so my body is apparently stuck in maintenance mode. Apparently, I am doing just enough exercise to offset my not so great eating habits. Something clicked back into place last week for me, though. Maybe it is my impending birthday or maybe it is the fact that I have been so bloated I look 5 months pregnant, but either way I'm ready to get back at it. I do want to wear a bikini this summer Goddammit, and I want to feel at least semi-confident in it.
So, I am back at it again. I have signed up for the Fort4Fitness half marathon and I will run that in under 3 hours. I had printed off Marcy's May challenge with the intent of doing it (I didn't) so I am now using it for June. I also am doing my own little squat challenge that I made up. These are "easy" exercises that I can do without taking up a bunch of time and I can stick with. I want to get rid of the spare tire that has been hanging around my midsection for too long.
I have had a lot of ups and downs the past year, but although I may not be at my ultimate goal, I am damn proud of myself. 30 pounds may not seem like much when there are some extraordinary women out there who have lost 100+ pounds, but it is all mine. I worked for it and did things I never thought possible (like running/walking a half marathon). I love that I have muscles now! I am comfortable in my own skin and happier with myself than I have been in a long time. Thank you to all my friends in blogland that have helped along the way. The road was that much more enjoyable with you along for the ride.